In my new home in Bellingham, Washington, a mist ridden town on the Pacific Northwest Coast near Canada, I spent many troubled days walking by the glittering waters of Bellingham Bay, scouring my memory to unearth any details of my past that might exonerate Tom or provide further evidence that my worst fears were true. I keep telling myself it was only a dream. And the subsequent dreams of Tom chasing other women were only dreams, too. I don’t have to believe then, do I?

 I have written a few previous posts to give the reader some idea of what our life was like, so you could judge the facts for yourself. These were particularly difficult to understand actions that Tom took which now have completely different possible interpretations given my new suspicions.

Even after going over the events in our life which were fairly persuasive proof of Tom’s ongoing infidelities, I still couldn’t convince myself. Afterall, it was just circumstantial evidence; maybe there was some other explanation possible.

 Then, another damning memory popped up. I remembered something that had happened shortly after I’d first settled in my new home in the Pacific Northwest, while I was still grieving. I was trying to deal with being on my own when suddenly a life-threatening problem arose. Paralyzed by fear, with no one to turn to, so I searched out Pam Coronado, the famous psychic from the TV show Sensing Murder. Having watched her many times on television, I knew her predictions were absolutely reliable, and that I could trust what she told me. I set up an appointment to talk to her by phone. She was as brilliant with my problem as she had been on TV and able to give me the facts to alleviate my fears. And everything she had predicted back then turned out to be absolutely right on.

 But a funny thing happened during that session, which I believe was actually why my crisis and this call were “orchestrated.” She said that Tom was there and telling her that I would write a book about his true story, and that book would hit it big and come out of the blue, like the book Fifty Shades of Grey. Needless to say, I was astounded; I couldn’t imagine what in Tom’s true story could possibly be a big hit book like Fifty Shades of Grey. It never crossed my mind that he was telling me there was sexual misbehavior in his true story.

 I was thrilled with Pam’s prediction about writing a hit book. As a result, I turned my fairly successful blog posts about the adventures of an actor’s life into the ebook Don’t Quit Your Day Job. Now, a few months after the cheating dream, I suddenly remembered Pam’s words: Fifty Shades of Grey and Tom’s true story. Of course. Confirmation of my worst fears. Then I knew my horrible dream had been true.

And Tom had kept telling me through Pam, “Face it. Face it. Don’t hide anything.” Well, facing it was easier said than done. And what had been hidden, was even harder unearth and to face. I knew that I’d have to call Pam again to see what she could tell me.